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I (29F) on a date with a guy (30M) last week and it was pretty decent. Started out kinda awkward but ended up being a good date I think. I wanted to see him again but was unsure if he felt the same. He did say he wanted to (but I know people say this without meaning it so I didn’t take it too seriously) we ended up making out after dinner and it went a little farther than I thought it would go. I got caught up in the moment and regretted it afterward.

We texted for a few days after the date. He had a prior commitment out of town this weekend but said we could set something up for the next weekend. But it’s been crickets since Wednesday from him and I’m sure he’s probably just ghosting and doesn’t want to see me again. Which would be fine I guess, if we hadnt gotten a little physical on the first date. I don’t typically do that on first dates because you just never know how it’s gonna go and it makes the rejection feel more personal and hurtful. I’m trying to just forget about it but it does hurt. I keep going over everything and wondering what I did or said that made him not want to see me again and think ghosting me was the better option. Wondering if he’s judging me for hooking up on the first date. Also annoyed with myself for caring.